I lost my Bitch yesterday. She was replaced by the “Brat.”
It started off rather innocently. I had this picture of a seriously hot guy I was going to post for you. To top it off, the hot guy picture came with something hilarious. All courtesy of my super hot, sexy, amazing friend Mary Ann. I had the post all ready…and when I published it…it went poof. So did my computer. My computer spent the rest of the day going poof. I was getting more and more irritated and impatient. And the Brat took over the Bitch. Before the Bitch left she told me to take my own advice. Work out or dance the frustration out. So I go to Netflix to do my favorite Bitch work out: Jillian Michaels Cardio Kick Box. No longer could I instantly watch and do it. It was taken off the list. This is when the Brat officially took over.
I tried lots of things and they didn’t help. I worked out to another video. I watched the Patriots last night while savoring Brie, grapes and Pinot Noir. Didn’t do it for me. I thought about how irritated I was that I couldn’t do what I wanted to do. (I wish I had a baby’s rattle to throw down: It would have been perfect for this Drama Queen moment!) Does that happen to you? Does your Brat make you stew and keep your irritation/impatience going on for hours?
This morning I woke up early and realized what was going on. I was over thinking the whole thing. And I surrendered. Surrendered to the irritation, impatience and the Brat. I took an hour off work to do a Jillian work out, savored a long shower and gave myself a pedicure. And…LOL…I finally felt better.
Was it the work out? No.
Was it savoring a long shower? No.
Was it the pedicure? No.
It was the surrender.
Surrendering can be so powerful! In this world we are taught to be “in control” of everything. We live it every day of out lives. My Brat was my impatience taking over. We all know about my impatience problem http://bitchlifestyle.com/2009/05/impatiencea-virtue/ Surrendering to my impatience led to the following conclusions:
1. It’s not my fault the post didn’t work. The picture/file was causing problems on my site and with my computer. I know this because when I closed and deleted the picture everything started running fine again.
2. I’m not the most technical person in the world. It’s amazing how much I’ve accomplished on my own regarding this blog. Cut yourself some slack, woman!
3. I’m at my computer 10-12 hours a day. Learning, posting, researching and editing the site. That would get to anyone. Cut yourself some slack woman!
Lesson Learned: Give myself a break and stop fighting it. The fun activities (football, wine, etc.) were contributing to my irritation because I felt guilty I wasn’t working and accomplishing. You know how I feel about guilt. Feeling guilty is a waste of time. What makes you feel better is action. The action in this case was realizing I needed to cut myself some slack due to my impatience with myself. I wouldn’t have realized this if I hadn’t been strong enough to surrender to my impatience.
Has this ever happened to you? I would love to hear your stories and laugh at our bratty sides together!
Love, Goddess
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