Letting go. Whether it’s using up the last bit of your favorite beauty product, friends you’ve lost touch with, doubt, or the love of your life. It’s difficult to let go of things that once made us feel so good, but don’t anymore. I’m letting go of some huge things in my life. By letting go I’m moving forward.
Letting Go Number One: My need to be a beauty product junkie. My need began when I was an actress in Los Angeles years ago. I was broke. Whenever I had an important social event I couldn’t afford a new outfit. I could afford a new 99 cent eye liner or nail polish. Those were my treats. So when I started making more money, I would go nuts buying whatever beauty product my heart desired. The pay off is amazing skin. But I had a closet full of beauty products that kept growing! I was buying more beauty products than I could use, and holding on to them for dear life. It symbolized something I’d attained: the ability to obtain fun, expensive beauty products. But I’m not a broke actress anymore. Over the last couple weeks I’ve slowly been going through them. Savoring them and appreciating that I could now afford to replace them.
Letting Go Number Two: Letting go of The Love of My Life. Years ago I was at the premiere of a play called “Just Say Love.” When I saw it, it touched me deeply. I so desired for the Love of My Life to tell me he loved me. I thought that was the lesson of the play entering my life. It wasn’t. The lesson was for me to “Just Say Love” to me. This play’s premiere was a metaphor for the start of my personal love affair with me. And it grew into this web site! I had to start choosing myself over the Love of My Life. I was working way too hard for the love of my life and getting hurt and not appreciated in return. No more. I now choose myself. “Just Say Love” has been all over me this week, and whenever I need to choose loving myself first and foremost. Amazing, huh?
Letting Go Number Three: Letting go of my leadership responsibilities. For the first time in 6 years I will not be present at a show for the improvisational comedy group I created. This very important show is this weekend. I had practice the last couple months. I was present in shows, but did not take the leadership role. All I had to do was play. That was hard for me to do at first but felt wonderful. Last night I was uptight before rehearsal. Jason, one of the actors in the troupe knew that something was up for me. He asked what it was and I told him that this week was all about “letting go,” and gave him details. He listened beautifully and kept reassuring me everything was going to run perfectly. Thank you Jason! Which leads me to the reason why I won’t be at the show this weekend:
Letting Go Number Four: My semi-annual trek to Miami with my 300 girlfriends is this weekend. It’s all about researching our pleasures and wants. LETTING GO. Surrendering to the “slightly wicked” in us…or the “deeply wicked.” It depends on how far we want to go. It’s all up to each of us. It’s safe. These wonderful 300 women will not judge. You’re a trapeze artist on the edge of a precipice…on the verge of flying. Your safety net is 300 gorgeous smiling women. And there is so much pressure! Even with all the permission in the world in a safe setting it’s hard to fully let go! But that, ladies, is not what I will focus on. I will focus on being in the moment and not worrying. And I’ve begun by starting before I go this weekend. I’m doing this by taking the best care of myself. Taking more time to pamper myself, rest, and communicating my unease at “letting go.” Reveling in all the vulnerability this entails.
This is a lot in one week, huh? If I can do it…so can you. So take a little bite at letting something go today. Just a little one. A taste. A sample. Maybe tomorrow you take a little rest…or do a bit more. It’s your love affair. You’re the boss. (Sly wink) Love, Goddess